Divorce is not a Dirty Word
But as for me, my feet had almost slipped; I had nearly lost my foothold. For I envied the arrogant when I saw the prosperity of the wicked. . .When my heart was grieved and my spirit embittered, I was senseless and ignorant; I was a brute beast before you. Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. . .But as for me, it is good to be near God. I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge; I will tell of all your deeds. Psalm 73:2-3; 21-26; 28
This week I will be referring often to The Cry of the Soul, (Cry) a book written by Dr. Dan Allender and Dr. Tremper Longman.
God longs for us to trust Him, you know that. But, have you really allowed Him to look inside you and help you along your road of recovery? Cry states, "emotions are not amoral -- they vocalize the inner working of our souls and are as tainted as any other portion of our personality ...The reason for looking inside is not to effect direct change of negative emotions to positive emotions. Instead, we are to listen to and ponder what we feel in order to be moved to the far deeper issue of what our hearts are doing with God and others."
We have talked about being authentic before, but this time we are talking about being REAL before God. He will often use whatever circumstances He can to call us to trust Him at a deeper, more intense level than we have before. He longs for us to face our emotions, not run from them. Since God created our emotions we are to experience them. Along that same line, if He created us in His likeness (and I believe He did), our emotions can give us a glimpse into how He thinks and feels.
Our emotions connect happenings in our external world to his internal thoughts. Therefore, it is important to be aware of what we are truly feeling in any given circumstance. Most people prefer numbness to realness in order to avoid pain. I don't know about you, but every time I have been to the dentist and had my gums deadened with novocaine, the feeling came back. Well, itís the same with our emotions. At some point in time the emotions will come back, no matter how hard we try to run from them. So, go ahead and feel right now.
Cry out to God, He is ready, willing, and able to embrace you with His hope for your life. We don't have to be senseless and ignorant. We can experience the present (and the past) with our Father beside us.