Divorce is not a Dirty Word
As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God? My tears have been my food day and night ...My soul is downcast within me; therefore I will remember you. . .Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls; all your waves and breakers have swept over me. By day the LORD directs his love, at night his song is with me -- a prayer to the God of my life. I say to God my Rock, "Why have you forgotten me? Why must I go about mourning, oppressed by the enemy?" My bones suffer mortal agony as my foes taunt me, saying to me all dory long, "Where is your God?" Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God. Psalm 42:1-3;Sb; 7-11
Do you get the feeling that the writer of this Psalm has been going through a hard time? Me too. I can almost feel the dry parched mouth of a deer after running from a hunter, hungering for water. A marvelous comparison as to how our soul truly does hunger for God. To have an actual physical encounter with His majesty is too awesome to imagine. Yet, we experience the cry of His heart as tears run down our face in loneliness. Why? Because He hungers for us.
The depth of our soul understands the cleansing rush of the waterfall, the waves of the sea, and the power that explodes as they break into the air. God's embrace is much like that rush, that thrill the moment when our soul truly connects with our Creator. Suddenly, without warning our pain connects with His pain and we experience oneness with the Almighty.
When we finally reach a point of brokenness and acknowledge to ourselves that the genuine hunger of our heart was really for His love ¾ not the love of human kind, we reach out to embrace God. Yet, how can we embrace God? In order to truly embrace Him is to serve Him. To do that, we must touch the hand of a hurting heart.
When we ignore our emotions, our feelings, we are turning our back on reality, and on God. It is in walking through reality, through the pain, that we find God. Where do we find Him? Hanging on a tree in the beginning. Then, we find Him within ourselves. Cry says, "emotions reveal what's happening on a vertical level. They provide a window on the question, What am I doing with God?"
I must admit that too many times I have used God for earthly gain. I used Him to have others love me. Now I beg Him to use me so others will love Him. Have you thought about doing this? Do yourself a favor. Allow God to truly use your pain for His gain today. Reach out and touch a hurting heart.