Divorce is not a Dirty Word
Be merciful tome, O LORD for I am in distress, my eyes grow weak with sorrow, my soul and my body with grief. My life is consumed by anguish and my years by groaning; my strength fails because of my affliction, and my bones grow weak. Because of all my enemies, I am the utter contempt of my neighbors; I am a dread to my friends - those who see me on the street flee from me. I am forgotten by them as though I were dead; I have become like broken pottery. . . "But I trust in you, O LORD ;" I say, "You are my God." My times are in your hands; deliver me from my enemies and from those who pursue me. Let your face shine on your servant; save me in your unfailing love. Let me not be put to shame, O LORD , for I have cried out to you; but let the wicked be put to shame and lie silent in the grave. . .Praise to the Lord, for he showed his wonderful love to me when I was in a besieged city. In my alarm I said, "I am cut off from your sight!" Yet you heard my cry for mercy when I called to you for help. Love the LORD , all his saints! The LORD preserves the faithful, but the proud he pays back in full. Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the LORD . Psalm 31:9-12;14-17; 2124
This is a Psalm of David. Do you think that maybe he was mad at somebody? I do. I also know how he feels. When people are mad at us for a good reason it still hurts. But when somebody is mad at you for no reason? The pain is terrible! This Psalm is mild compared to others when the writer tells or begs God to kill the enemies. Talk about getting real before God!!! I have a hard enough time just verbalizing my unhappiness. Don't get me wrong. There have been times, in brief moments of anger I have blurted out; "God why don't you just let them die!!!" Now, that's not the same as saying kill them. . .is it?
No doubt, David feels the type of shame that leads to contempt. He feels that everyone is looking at him as if he is a madman, or worse ¾ a leper. This type of shame is often debilitating. It leads to the type of despair that could lead to suicide. Yet, David chooses to be still. In that quiet moment of stillness He remembers who anointed him for what. He then turns back to God and remembers past times when God was there for Him. I can imagine David falling upon his face and worshiping God from the deepest part of himself.
Contempt drives us outward with an uncontrollable anger, one bent on destruction. If we are unable to direct our energy toward the one who hurt us the anger backfires and hits us ¾ right in the soul. Cry says, "Contemptuous blame shifting violates God and others as we refuse to bear the weight of our offense with sorrow and strength."
Growth happens when we begin to accept responsibility for where we are and for our feelings. We cannot grow as long as we are blaming someone else for our problems. It is when we recognize our responsibility that we also recognize our desperate need for God. This is where hope begins. David recognized that His hope was in the Lord. So is yours. Don't walk in despair today. Walk in the hope that God has greater plans for you than you can imagine.